Thursday, May 31, 2012

Sabbatical

I have not been online in about six weeks (email, facebook or web surfing). Taking a break was long over due and it was a breath of fresh air.

I care a lot about people and it is really hard for me to stop and take care of my own needs when there are so many of us suffering and needing support/guidance/encouragement. Unfortunately, in not listening to my inner spirit that said I needed a break, I pushed through it and ended up in an unhealthy place where I was not taking care of my own needs.

I dealt with a lot of guilt for shutting down as a health advocate, as a friend, as a daughter, as a niece to my uncle ect. I am past the guilt and on to being thankful for the people who are in my life that have been in contact with me despite my absence online and for those who have given me the grace I have needed while I have taken a break.

I needed to deal with my burnout, my health issues and my personal issues before I could be more balanced in being a health advocate and making an effort to keep up my connections. And I am still working through all those things. The silence was peaceful as I did not feel the crazy burden of the bustling internet. The silence has given me a chance to readjust what is important to me in my life.

The silence is as vital to me (and I'd argue to you) as air. It is a chance to breathe and refresh and heal.

I am not saying I am back yet, but maybe I'll be around.