Tuesday, February 21, 2012

With Faith, I'm Signing Off...For Now.

It has been a while since I posted and may be a while until I can again. And I felt you all deserved to know.

Sometimes we all must take a break from the things that we love and though this is not my choice to break from blogging/being online, I have had to do it. There is a season for everything. I have found blogging and becoming an advocate for those with Migraine and chronic illness to be a passion and part of my purpose. Even so, I trust God will bring me back to it in his timing.

I am not well. I will refer you to my last post if you need to refresh your memory.

I have nothing to give anyone right now and that greatly saddens me as I care so deeply for all of you and desire to be supportive and reaching out to you. But I hope that my loved ones, my friends, my chronic illness buddies and you my readers will understand I must put myself and my health first. Actually, my body isn't really giving me a choice in the matter. This said, know I keep a journal of your names and pray for you daily. Even if you've only written me once. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

I will be going to Mayo Clinic for a very thorough evaluation in a couple weeks. So far my stay will be eight days not including two travel days but it could be extended. Most days are filled with appointments and testing. I received the schedule in the mail and was told that more testing/appointments may be added once I talk with the physician that will quarterback my care. In fact, I know there will be more added. I am not anxious, nervous or scared and am thankful. I am simply looking forward to going to a place where I know they will give me answers one way or another.

With God's grace, strength and support I get through each day. However, the days are long and difficult.

George or myself will be updating my personal CarePages during our time at Mayo. Please email me if you are interested in following those updates.

I am grateful for many things in my life including you all and I daily think on them. I've even written a list of things I am grateful for which is posted on the wall that I keep adding to.  I am determined to choose joy even though there is much suffering. There may be clouds overhead, but I know that the sun is behind them...no matter how long this storm lasts, the sun will come out eventually.

I leave you with a song that means a lot to my family and George and me. It is one I grew up with as my dad played it often. It was one of several songs he put on a CD just after I was disabled by Migraine disease to cheer me up. It is a song that is meaningful to my whole family because of the memories it brings. It is especially special to George and I and we sing to each other often...especially on bad days.
By Crosby, Still, Nash and Young: "Our House".

I wish you all Grace and Peace,
Kelly

3 comments:

  1. Hello Kelly,

    Although I just recently find your blog, I have had a chance to read through all your past post. It was one of the first blogs I found when I was searching for some support online with chronic headaches.

    I felt so alone in the world and just helpless. No one in my family or circle of friends really understood how I suffered and the continued fear and anxiety I had in dealing with these headaches. I was comforted by your blog when I came across it because you were so detailed and honest about your illness yet you still had courage and strength to share this journey with others.

    Instead of going to a therapist to help me deal with my feelings of anger and depression with the headaches, I turned to reading blogs online. I wanted to understand more about how others dealt with pain and suffering. So I do want you to know that your blog has helped me.

    I am so amazed at your courage! You are a wonderful writer and a great advocate! Indeed you will be missed, but certainly taking care of yourself is the most important thing. I wish you the best of care during your stay at The Mayo Clinic. I hope and pray the Doctors can provide you with relief from all that your body has had to endure over the years.

    May God look down upon all of us in pain and suffering and bring some healing into our lives!

    Stay Strong and Positive!

    Love, Peace and Hugs to you my friend!

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  2. Kelly,
    I'm so sorry to hear that things aren't going well for you. And at the same time, I'm excited that you're going to Mayo. With all you go through every single day, you deserve answers - and treatment that works. God bless you on this big step. Take time for yourself and know that you'll be missed!

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  3. Thank you for posting this. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.....

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