I have an upcoming surgery: Endolymphatic Sac Decompression Surgery on this Tuesday, March 29th. We are hoping that this surgery will relieve the disabling vertigo I have been having which seems to be caused by Meniere's disease. I have many concerns. I am not looking forward to major surgery or general anesthesia. Nor am I looking forward to having a hole drilled into my head. Hasn't my head been through enough?
But, I just read a passage yesterday that encouraged me. I was reading a devotional in a book called One Year of Hope by Nancy Guthrie. She shared Ephesians 6:10-18. It is a passage that discusses how we are to put on God's armor to protect us in battle. As my surgery has been approaching, I have been faced with so much uncertainty and great anxiety. Even though I have asked many questions of my neuro-otologist, spoken with a dear fellow blogger, Wendy, who has shared with me her experience with the surgery, researched it on the internet and actually watched a video of the surgery, I still feel very unprepared. I do not feel I know what to expect after the surgery happens. Will I be one of the people who recovers quickly and with little pain? Or will I be one of the ones whose pain goes on for weeks and recovery is slow? How will my Migraines react? Will I go into rebound because of the pain killers I'm taking for the surgery pain? I don't know.
But, reading Ephesians reminded me how to prepare for a battle. And, with my anxiety, I need a plan of how to prepare for the uncertainty and unknown of what happens Tuesday and beyond. So, here I will paraphrase the passage by writing how I will be preparing myself to face the unknown.
-Stand your ground.
-Put on the sturdy belt of truth
-Put on the body armor of God's righteousness
-Put on the peace that comes from the Good News
-Use faith as a shield
-Put on the helmet of salvation
-Take the sword of the Spirit (the word of God)
-Pray at all times.
What does this mean for me? I will lean on the strength of God to get me through. When I am scared, have doubts or concerns, I will remind myself of God's truth that he loves me. I will tap into God's peace as I struggle through. I will hold firmly to my faith. I will read the bible and my devotionals to keep me close to him and his thoughts. And I will pray at all times to get me through.