Friday, March 25, 2011

Preparing For Battle

I have an upcoming surgery: Endolymphatic Sac Decompression Surgery on this Tuesday, March 29th. We are hoping that this surgery will relieve the disabling vertigo I have been having which seems to be caused by Meniere's disease. I have many concerns. I am not looking forward to major surgery or general anesthesia. Nor am I looking forward to having a hole drilled into my head. Hasn't my head been through enough?

But, I just read a passage yesterday that encouraged me. I was reading a devotional in a book called One Year of Hope by Nancy Guthrie. She shared Ephesians 6:10-18. It is a passage that discusses how we are to put on God's armor to protect us in battle. As my surgery has been approaching, I have been faced with so much uncertainty and great anxiety. Even though I have asked many questions of my neuro-otologist, spoken with a dear fellow blogger, Wendy, who has shared with me her experience with the surgery, researched it on the internet and actually watched a video of the surgery, I still feel very unprepared. I do not feel I know what to expect after the surgery happens. Will I be one of the people who recovers quickly and with little pain? Or will I be one of the ones whose pain goes on for weeks and recovery is slow? How will my Migraines react? Will I go into rebound because of the pain killers I'm taking for the surgery pain? I don't know.

But, reading Ephesians reminded me how to prepare for a battle. And, with my anxiety, I need a plan of how to prepare for the uncertainty and unknown of what happens Tuesday and beyond. So, here I will paraphrase the passage by writing how I will be preparing myself to face the unknown.

-Stand your ground.
-Put on the sturdy belt of truth
-Put on the body armor of God's righteousness
-Put on the peace that comes from the Good News
-Use faith as a shield
-Put on the helmet of salvation
-Take the sword of the Spirit (the word of God)
-Pray at all times.

What does this mean for me? I will lean on the strength of God to get me through. When I am scared, have doubts or concerns, I will remind myself of God's truth that he loves me. I will tap into God's peace as I struggle through. I will hold firmly to my faith. I will read the bible and my devotionals to keep me close to him and his thoughts. And I will pray at all times to get me through.

6 comments:

  1. I'm thinking of you and wishing you the best with this surgery.

    Please keep me posted. If you need to vent you know where I am.

    I hope this is a breeze for you, but I understand your concerns.

    You are a strong lady! You've been though a lot, hopefully this will make things easier for you.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    wendy

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  2. Thanks Wendy for the encouragement, thoughts and prayers! Will let you know how it goes. :) <3

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  3. I just subscribed to your blog after your posts on the migraine forum...it sounds like we have a lot of the same thoughts and struggles! I'll be praying for you and the surgery; I know that's scary! You've got a great attitude about it, and I loved the verses you quoted. I'll try to remember it for myself, as well. Good luck, and remember that God will be there with ya! :)

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  4. Oh Laci, I am flattered! Thanks for subscribing! I look forward to getting to know you better too! What is your "name" on the forum? I'm still recovering from the surgery and just returning to the internet, but I hope to be posting more soon. Hugs

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  5. I go by "dizzygrl" on the forum. :)

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  6. Hi Kelly,
    I've been thinking about you a lot. How did the surgery go? Any improvements?

    You are always in my thoughts, hoping you are feeling better.

    wendy

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